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So I'm sitting here in the living room of Al's flat. She's been in bed for a few hours now, and I don't want to wake her up. Things are just starting to return to something resembling "normal", and I don't want to fuck up her patterns either. I know I've been sucking like hell with this thing... I just keep forgetting about it. It always happens with sites like this. I used to have a Xanga an eon ago, and I actually used that one a bit. Dunno what happened to it. Or what the name even was... I made another one I have to work on. Maybe I'll do good with it again.
They say getting married changes people. One look at me and people'd probably believe it. But the thing is... It's not me, nor is it Alice. We're still same. It's just, other circumstances. I really don't want to get into the details of what happened, because most people already know. I do have this strange need to just type. So I'mma try something.
I've got iTunes open, and my entire music collection is on shuffle. I'm just gonna let it guide me and type out whatever comes to my head. Maybe it'll help with all the stuff that's just been going through my brain. Who knows?
Hah, "My Town" by Buck-O-Nine just came on. This is a really great song, for just all around good feelings. It has a charm to it that just raises my spirits. It's got this fast fun sound. Which reminds me- I need to download some PsychoBilly songs.
I think I might start writing more PsychoBilly songs. I love how the songs are just so fast and out there. I've played "Heading To The Disco" by The HorrorPops more than 5 times today. We're gonna be needing a bassist before long...
My mind is doing this dull buzzing thing. It wants to get all its thoughts out and in order, but it just can't. There's like this fog hanging over me. I wanna talk to people, but 90% of the time I just lose focus and the conversation drifts off. That can't be a good thing. I mean, it's a lot better than it was right after the wedding, but it's still there.
At any giving point I can go from depressed, to happy, to pissed off, to God-Knows-What-Else. It drains the hell outta me. It makes me wish there was an off switch to my mind- one I could flip anytime I needed to.
I don't really know anymore. I just got hit heavilly with a good dose of drowsy. I think I'mma throw in the towel for today. Crawling into bed and cuddling up to Alice sounds like the most amazing thing in the world right now.
Out.
They say getting married changes people. One look at me and people'd probably believe it. But the thing is... It's not me, nor is it Alice. We're still same. It's just, other circumstances. I really don't want to get into the details of what happened, because most people already know. I do have this strange need to just type. So I'mma try something.
I've got iTunes open, and my entire music collection is on shuffle. I'm just gonna let it guide me and type out whatever comes to my head. Maybe it'll help with all the stuff that's just been going through my brain. Who knows?
Hah, "My Town" by Buck-O-Nine just came on. This is a really great song, for just all around good feelings. It has a charm to it that just raises my spirits. It's got this fast fun sound. Which reminds me- I need to download some PsychoBilly songs.
I think I might start writing more PsychoBilly songs. I love how the songs are just so fast and out there. I've played "Heading To The Disco" by The HorrorPops more than 5 times today. We're gonna be needing a bassist before long...
My mind is doing this dull buzzing thing. It wants to get all its thoughts out and in order, but it just can't. There's like this fog hanging over me. I wanna talk to people, but 90% of the time I just lose focus and the conversation drifts off. That can't be a good thing. I mean, it's a lot better than it was right after the wedding, but it's still there.
At any giving point I can go from depressed, to happy, to pissed off, to God-Knows-What-Else. It drains the hell outta me. It makes me wish there was an off switch to my mind- one I could flip anytime I needed to.
I don't really know anymore. I just got hit heavilly with a good dose of drowsy. I think I'mma throw in the towel for today. Crawling into bed and cuddling up to Alice sounds like the most amazing thing in the world right now.
Out.
Current Location: Alice's Flat
Current Mood: 
drained
drainedCurrent Music: Madina Lake's "From Them, Through Us, To You" album
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